UNREQUITED LOVE

I kept standing at your closed door
With a bouquet in my hand

I kept knocking at your locked heart
With a humble and modest desire

My heart was was heavy with burden of your thoughts
Not that i knew that yours wasn't

I committed this sin, of fancying you
While for you it's just annoyance

I keep telling the world, my pathetic story
I earn a thousand pity, i write allegory

I pretend i'm the one, who bore the most pain
Out in the lonely miserable universe

You keep telling the world, "he's just a rat,
Chasing me all the way, like a creepy old cat."

So i am now shown my own place,
At the dirty little corner no one can find a trace

I've thrown away the desire, the erotic tales
That i harbored with care, waiting to unveil

The roses are gone, they're rotting in drove
They're cursed by me, my unrequited love.



---With (No)Love , SDR

WAITING ON YOUR TRAIL..

Come each afternoon, I look out of the window
For the sign of your blue veil, dangling off your shoulder

It reminds me of the waves,  the infinite power source
As you hold the key to my life, providing me the drops of it

As you walk over the green, they feel blessed by you
For each movement of you is surreal, reminds me of deity

To your child-like mellifluous giggle, everything else seems noise
I desire you could do the same to me, with your lips so close to my ears

I wish you could sit beside me, so I could gaze upon you
I could feel the brightness of your skin, to my hearts content

I wish you were so close to me, that I could feel your breath
That our cheeks could collide, and let our lips do the dive

Your thoughts are so complicated, so as I never get a guage
If I could bury my face in your heart, to see what's inside...

But I lose my way to your heart, as your softness makes me numb
I could hardly open my eyes, I've found the brightest corner in the dark

As I wrap my hands around you, your fragrance makes me crazy
I wish my heart was to my right, so it could synchronize with yours

Wish I could explore all about you, the depths and valleys that you possess
But you're so deep and vast, you're infinite, as if I'm lost in nature itself

But I'm not lost, though I want to be, I'm still here at my window,
Waiting on your trail, as thirsty as ever, as you'll be my mirage forever....

---SDR

JUST AFTER YOU

Just after the rise of the sun
The smile of yours fills my eyes
Just before the end of the day
I long for your glimpse, at bay

Just before the stars twinkle
Your smooth cheeks does that for me
Just after the first bird tweets
I long for your voice so sweet

Just after the red rose blooms
Your lips start to resemble it
Just before butterflies fly
You spread your wings to see me by

Just before the darkness prevails
You are the light of my life
Just before I break down in tears
It's your thought that I can't anymore bear

Just before my heart runs out
I would love to be touched by you
Just after I learn you're a dream
I'll sleep for eternity, I'd stop its scream.

BEREAVEMENT

My hopes are about to die
My heart is all but crippled
With an ominous looking sky,
My spirit is totally shackled.

I've tried very hard to cope
Trying to to forget all my heartache
I could go no far but mope
I've failed to balm on my mistake

All the wishful treasures that I had
To touch others' life with my love
I've locked the doors with a thud
There's only a useless heap of trove.

I had desired a life full of bliss
Where scope of a smile was adamant
It was a dreadful task to accomplish
The poisonous pursuit made me broken, malignant.

I'm still alive with dead cold heart
Unable to feel or to try to reinvent
Deep down I know, what little I have left
It's living with myself, my own bereavement.

--Suman Dutta Roy

INTIMACY

I keep on burning my eyes

With the illusive light of hope

It's merely real, free of all vice

But it's something I'll never be able to cope

I can't stop measuring your trail

Lining up the smallest grains of sand

I'm clueless how your impressions on grass prevail

I can feel the softness of your feet with my hand

I keep researching with your trail left behind

Running out of variables for my equations to bind

I may fail again to predict a glimpse of you

It's rather easy to be lost in your impressions' view

I'll always remember the scent of our intimacy,

It might be able to show me the way towards you

But  your fragrance is so intoxicating to me

It keeps me getting back to your fantasy

I'm inveterate with the warmth of your body,

With the untraceable curves and endless cusps

I might not be able to solve their mystery,

I'll  just be sank into the god's own craft

Sometimes I wonder what are all these

A spell, an enchantment, a deadly conspiracy

Devised by you to keep you with me

While still keeping yourself away..

-----BY S.D.R. ..........:)

Pulchritude

From the glittering of your eyes
I see the light of the day
They enlighten me with knowledge
Of the desires I have on the edge


Your darkened hair makes me wonder
Of the night we were alone
The distance between us was nether
But it seemed like a lightyear as ever


I have never been to the mountain
That has the curves of your pink lips
They seem like a trap made of twin
As if my soul is eclipsed in between


As i touch your neck in my dreams
My tactioception fulfills its meaning
Your body responses with joy and shiver
My heartbeat synchronizes with it forever


You let me go deep down with you
To discover more valleys of love never seen
I get lost in them and rest my soul
To be never waken up again


And i wish that i make you fragrant
With the warmth of inside of my heart
The scent of your body beats any flower
That god might have made in heaven for shower


Yes i know its a mere dream
And you are far,far away
But I find you in me every moment i spend
I'll be with you to the line till the end
**********************
By Suman Dutta Roy

OBLIVION

Through the wilderness of happiness
I've come across a long way,
The moments of joy,awakening of desires
Have found there way to the doorway,


Though the thoughts of you were a burden as it seemed
A mere fantasy of a nincompoop,
A deceiving mirage of a lonely desert
Like wandering on and on in a loop,


Oh! Is this so? I didn't know..
This is all what YOU think,
To me it's a beacon, a hope in the dark
A thread to my life,a connection, a link,


I dare hard to bear you in me
As pictures of the times of anguish relentless,
So I keep on striving to save the memories
That threaten me to go to the oblivion of nothingness......

LIMERENCE

Of all the winds that you know of
This is the one which is totally off,

Not the storm of the sky that twirls your sneses
Or the breeze of the night that chills in expense,

Nor the perspirers of the summer afternoon
Bred by the scorching sun and made to bloom,

But this is somewaht different, you'd wonder what it is
It takes you by surprise and blow your mind in piece,

What it is that made you look for someone you never known to
And to feel the unknown pain which you confused whether to let go,

I don't wanna let it go,I wanna let be sink
To judge if my blood in veins could survive your deadly blink,

I dare not survive this time, craving to be destroyed in peace
Cuz your turbulent thoughts are soothing taking me to cease,

I am bounded by the laws of wanting to see you
Instructed by my heart for desiring to touch you,

To be seen by you for whatever small moments,
Cuz now I know I've been touched by the air of limerence.... 

Illusions

The red of the moon and green of the sky

And a darker shadow that pass by

All the ways you've gone to see

The illusions those are hard to be

Nothing is like this one though

Tear your heart with and arrow from bow

The moment you think you have the balm

You've started to burn and wounds have begun

The sweetness of a face and soothing of a heart

The promises of a phase and making a pact..

All tend to dust as you approach the desert

Where life is a mirage and its 'moments' are illusions....

THE ROSE AND THE TALE OF A GRASS

Oh rose,all these years i've been with you

 I've seen you blush to pink

 I've seen you flaunt your red

 I've seen you sleep at night

 With ur cheeks coming out of the wrap

 Shining in the moonstruck light

I came across all your colors

 They change with the moves of the sun

 As if telling the untold story

 Of your tears which i see every dawn

Wonder why were you made so charming

 Your beauty kills each trace of my life

 No wonder why are you so full of pride

 Why your thorns make owning you a strife

All these years i've been below you

 You never even looked down to me

 I kept holding your soil so that you dont fall

 Never you cared to say thank you

I wonder what hideous creature i am

 What to tell,i'm just a grass

 Yes, you heard that totally right 

 I'm just a little thing so crass

Every human loves you, 

 Wants to take you in hands

 Wants to touch you and feel you

 Gift you to the lovers fulfilling their demands

I neither desrve to look at you

 Nor i want to make do

 The scorching sun helps me

 He tells me to fade to which im due

But with the advent of the rain

 I've gone out of my mind again

 My fluids are high,my shades deeper

 My heart coming out of the cage

You have so many lovers to keep you flattered

 At the moments of your happiness

 But once look around when the days are lonely

 You might see the green of my heart...i confess.

--S.D.R.