BEREAVEMENT

My hopes are about to die
My heart is all but crippled
With an ominous looking sky,
My spirit is totally shackled.

I've tried very hard to cope
Trying to to forget all my heartache
I could go no far but mope
I've failed to balm on my mistake

All the wishful treasures that I had
To touch others' life with my love
I've locked the doors with a thud
There's only a useless heap of trove.

I had desired a life full of bliss
Where scope of a smile was adamant
It was a dreadful task to accomplish
The poisonous pursuit made me broken, malignant.

I'm still alive with dead cold heart
Unable to feel or to try to reinvent
Deep down I know, what little I have left
It's living with myself, my own bereavement.

--Suman Dutta Roy

INTIMACY

I keep on burning my eyes

With the illusive light of hope

It's merely real, free of all vice

But it's something I'll never be able to cope

I can't stop measuring your trail

Lining up the smallest grains of sand

I'm clueless how your impressions on grass prevail

I can feel the softness of your feet with my hand

I keep researching with your trail left behind

Running out of variables for my equations to bind

I may fail again to predict a glimpse of you

It's rather easy to be lost in your impressions' view

I'll always remember the scent of our intimacy,

It might be able to show me the way towards you

But  your fragrance is so intoxicating to me

It keeps me getting back to your fantasy

I'm inveterate with the warmth of your body,

With the untraceable curves and endless cusps

I might not be able to solve their mystery,

I'll  just be sank into the god's own craft

Sometimes I wonder what are all these

A spell, an enchantment, a deadly conspiracy

Devised by you to keep you with me

While still keeping yourself away..

-----BY S.D.R. ..........:)

Pulchritude

From the glittering of your eyes
I see the light of the day
They enlighten me with knowledge
Of the desires I have on the edge


Your darkened hair makes me wonder
Of the night we were alone
The distance between us was nether
But it seemed like a lightyear as ever


I have never been to the mountain
That has the curves of your pink lips
They seem like a trap made of twin
As if my soul is eclipsed in between


As i touch your neck in my dreams
My tactioception fulfills its meaning
Your body responses with joy and shiver
My heartbeat synchronizes with it forever


You let me go deep down with you
To discover more valleys of love never seen
I get lost in them and rest my soul
To be never waken up again


And i wish that i make you fragrant
With the warmth of inside of my heart
The scent of your body beats any flower
That god might have made in heaven for shower


Yes i know its a mere dream
And you are far,far away
But I find you in me every moment i spend
I'll be with you to the line till the end
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By Suman Dutta Roy

OBLIVION

Through the wilderness of happiness
I've come across a long way,
The moments of joy,awakening of desires
Have found there way to the doorway,


Though the thoughts of you were a burden as it seemed
A mere fantasy of a nincompoop,
A deceiving mirage of a lonely desert
Like wandering on and on in a loop,


Oh! Is this so? I didn't know..
This is all what YOU think,
To me it's a beacon, a hope in the dark
A thread to my life,a connection, a link,


I dare hard to bear you in me
As pictures of the times of anguish relentless,
So I keep on striving to save the memories
That threaten me to go to the oblivion of nothingness......

LIMERENCE

Of all the winds that you know of
This is the one which is totally off,

Not the storm of the sky that twirls your sneses
Or the breeze of the night that chills in expense,

Nor the perspirers of the summer afternoon
Bred by the scorching sun and made to bloom,

But this is somewaht different, you'd wonder what it is
It takes you by surprise and blow your mind in piece,

What it is that made you look for someone you never known to
And to feel the unknown pain which you confused whether to let go,

I don't wanna let it go,I wanna let be sink
To judge if my blood in veins could survive your deadly blink,

I dare not survive this time, craving to be destroyed in peace
Cuz your turbulent thoughts are soothing taking me to cease,

I am bounded by the laws of wanting to see you
Instructed by my heart for desiring to touch you,

To be seen by you for whatever small moments,
Cuz now I know I've been touched by the air of limerence.... 

A Drop Of Water

I've been waiting here for the drop of a water

The drop of a water on the green leaf

I don't know how it is still there

Im just waiting like a thief.


I've waited for years before

The time when hope was strong

Never too alarmed by the intensity

Of my thirst that things can go wrong.


Since then it has been a long run

And innumerable things that i learn

All these years i've lived in the oasis

To explore the desert is the way to earn.


The torrid sands are yet to burn my feet

My body, my mind and my soul to defeat

Still i no more feel the thirst

Which once used to come out burst

Nor i seek the rain to come

That neither cares the winter nor the autumn

Only it cares the promise it makes

To drench the soil with love whatever it takes


But the sands are too cruel

Conspiring with the sun,

Never lets the clouds to bless,

Evil remains so stern.


So i've passaged a long way around

Never knowing what to seek

And now i see the drop there

Coming down rolling off green peak


The thirst doesn't bother anymore,

The drop only soothes my soul

The doubts of reality no more torments,

Do not care whether a mirage or a ghoul,


The only thing i want to do is

To stare at the beautiful bead,

To pray to god to keep it safe

In the conciousness of my head.

                               ---S.D.R.

DESTINATIONS

Pity on me for what I've been,

Pity on me for what I haven't seen

I've been flown away all the way by the waves,

All the way with the motion.

I could see all my destinies

On the other side of the river

They heckled me for the way I am me,

Tormented me for the way I could'nt see,

The possibilities of future.

I saw them move away,

I let them go further away;

Never making an attempt to combat,

Never knowing that I'm the cornered cat..


Now I wonder what's the change,

Why can't I ignore the visions in my range,

Why do I feel that I shouldn't think,

That an upstream should be an uphill thing..


Destinations have come and gone to the darkness of oblivion,

Except this new feeling breaking my heart and smashing my soul to frustration,

I kept asking myself whether this feeling is a destination,

Then I realized, this feeling is the PATH,

Which takes me to YOU,my DESTINATION......

---- by SUMAN DUTTA ROY.